Rants/confessions from a former(?) OSDever
Posted: Fri Aug 23, 2019 10:42 am
I used to post here 5 years ago, when I was in my early teens, but nowadays I just lurk.
Frankly, when I was developing my OS was the only time I enjoyed programming and created things for the sake of it. I still program (albeit in much less cooler technologies) for college and programming gigs but I think I'm inadequate: I suck at it. The act of getting stuck, having bug, or consulting documentation seems torturous.
Routine programming is such a mundane, cumbersome task that's too inhumane for most people and its pay is too inflated for what it's worth. It should've been eliminated a long time ago.
I used to believe that I was among the upper strata of programmers because I could write a working OS in baremetal assembly. But almost no one cares about it now and I am more-or-less below average to just average. Also, I get universally rejected from programming jobs and gigs. If I wasn't born in a closely-knit society, I'd probably end up on streets.
It's so demoralizing. Some people who learned to program, say, two years ago are doing amazing things like cutting edge edge research in machine learning or self-driving cars, and winning prestigious prizes like Microsoft Imagine Cup and here I am, searching on YouTube "How to do MongoDB."
I should never have stopped working on my OS. At least, I would have something to be proud of and feel worthy. It's a huge regret.
Frankly, when I was developing my OS was the only time I enjoyed programming and created things for the sake of it. I still program (albeit in much less cooler technologies) for college and programming gigs but I think I'm inadequate: I suck at it. The act of getting stuck, having bug, or consulting documentation seems torturous.
Routine programming is such a mundane, cumbersome task that's too inhumane for most people and its pay is too inflated for what it's worth. It should've been eliminated a long time ago.
I used to believe that I was among the upper strata of programmers because I could write a working OS in baremetal assembly. But almost no one cares about it now and I am more-or-less below average to just average. Also, I get universally rejected from programming jobs and gigs. If I wasn't born in a closely-knit society, I'd probably end up on streets.
It's so demoralizing. Some people who learned to program, say, two years ago are doing amazing things like cutting edge edge research in machine learning or self-driving cars, and winning prestigious prizes like Microsoft Imagine Cup and here I am, searching on YouTube "How to do MongoDB."
I should never have stopped working on my OS. At least, I would have something to be proud of and feel worthy. It's a huge regret.