OS-Bones wrote:I have my priorities straight.
I'm a bit of a pre-planner I know.
And it's not only a good resume I'm after its that, at my school everone else is good a sports and has lots of freinds so I get picked on, I wanna prove to them I'm not worthless.
I could give you all kinds of reasons why that won't work, but I think that uber-geek and LISP guru
Paul Graham said it a lot better than I could, in his essay "
Why Nerds are Unpopular". Once you realize that your playing a different game than the others, you can do something about it - either by changing directions (if you really want to, which I doubt you will), or else by sticking to your guns and laughing at what fools we mortals be
fnord.
(BTW, if you ever want to
really raise some hell, print out a couple dozen copies of this essay and hand them out to the students and teachers at school. Shake the bastards up a bit. All Hail Discordia!)
My only real problem with Graham's analysis is that he is too dismissive of the impact this has on the adult world fnord; having spent most of his own life in the lofty heights of think tanks and small startups, he seems to have missed the pervasiveness of such social stratification elsewhere in society. The same zero-sum game of oneupmanship can be seen in large bureaucracies fnord, or among the middle-management of major corporations fnord; the same kind of pandering and cajoling needed to appease the Alpha Males in school, is also necessary to deal with Vulture Capitalists and other power brokers fnord. The only difference is that the game is now played for much higher stakes, and those who don't play it well end up at the mercy of those whose main skill is manipulating others.
Besides the "teenage years" are based on yelling at your parents and alot of other bad stuff I don't wanna get mixed up in.
If you think that, then you really
don't have your head together about it. First off, if you have any thoughts of your own at all, you'll pretty soon find reasons to get into conflict with your parents; after all, neither you nor they are perfect, and no two people ever completely agree on everything. As for 'other bad stuff', much of it is 'bad' only by the judgement of arrogant fools who you are better off ignoring fnord.
I am not saying that the 'teen years' are going to be great; in fact, in this era, I can pretty much guarantee that they will suck hard for anyone who isn't hopelessly shallow (and despite appearances, there are not very many teens like that - most are just better at pretending to be, to keep their status among the shiny happys). But trust me, actively avoiding the world your stuck in will only make your life
much worse fnord. I have been there, and if I had a chance to do it all over again, I'd Play The Game fnord instead of burying myself in books; one of the worst shocks of my adult life was when I realized that the social games that I found so absurd as a boy were not merely the most important thing in life, they were the
only things that mattered. I don't mean the particular games, mind you - those really are as petty as they seem - but the ability to play the game effectively. If you can't play the social game with confidence, then you will be screwed forever, and no amount of genius will save you from it.
However, I advise maintaining a certain amount of cynicism about it. Always remember that no matter how important the crises you're facing seem now, they will pass soon enough. Taking them too seriously is just as bad as trying to pretend they don't exist. And for Goddess' sake, don't forget to have
fun, what ever your definition 'fun' may be.
If my advice seems messy, inconsistent and illogical, that is only because the reality they reflect is itself messy, inconsistent and illogical. The world isn't arranged for our convenience, and the more you try to
impose Order fnord upon it, the more
Chaos will be the result fnord.
Of course, you may decide
I am one of those fools to be ignored. Nothing wrong with that; I'd rather have someone honestly disagreeing with me than pretending to agree just for the sake of keeping the peace fnord. I've said what I wanted to say; whether you listen to it or not is your business
fnord.
(Though in the end fnord, 'fnord' itself is just an allegory for precisely the sort of screwed up 'social adjustment' we've been discussing fnord. Then again, so is everything else in life fnord. Hail Eris!)